something is scratching its way out.

So not much has happened recently, but it’s been a busy first month of school. We’re seniors now, old I know, and can’t quite believe it. The same thoughts, though exponentially more terrifying in their intensity, are running through our heads–where did the time go? we’d better slow down. what the hell?

It’s as if things are so hectic and busy that we keep wishing for each day to just please be fricken over already, but at the same time, at the end of the week when things quiet down, we seem to wish we could have a do-over. But do-overs only really existed when things weren’t quite understandable, when time wasn’t relavent and make believe was almost reality. It really was only ever real when we were about five.

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Being in on the qt makes me excited.

Anyway, so I got an internship for university credit and my first week was last week. I initially felt a bit useless as I don’t know how to use Adobe Illustrator to create document designs and layouts, so I’d been working primarily on textual things.

VT Intellectual Properties, Inc. does patent and licensing work. Any new research, developments, inventions, etc. that anyone (faculty, staff, students) comes up with is brought to VTIP so they can get rights to whatever it was they come up with. As a Technical Writing Intern, I am currently working on summaries of each of the technologies that the company wants to be marketed so that other companies/manufacturers/labs or whatever will license the new technology and get it out to the WORLD.

And now I am working on deadline stuff and am invited to sit in with attorney and inventor meetings so I can churn out the mini-newsletters/info sheets about the new tech after the inventors get rights to their inventions! And apparently the info I work on is ‘on the qt,’ which (and I had to look this up after I was told that this was what it was) means it’s very confidential.

So now it’s all gone to my head, and I feel rather important in the geekiest way possible. Besides, I love learning about new scientific research and all the new things that scientists are coming up with/researching. It’s like mini-lectures about various research projects! I do research on the tech, talk to the licensing associates who know about the tech, and soon I’ll be able to meet with the inventors themselves!

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“It’s like the end of an ERA!” – Rachel from Friends

Anyway, now it’s all coming to the point where I have to get a real job and get my own place to live–because, if we’re being honest here, I cannot live at home for very long after I get out of college. I am closer to my family than some people are, but at the same time, I feel like a moocher, and though they do say they like taking care of me, I feel as if they shouldn’t have to any longer.

So now that I’ve realized this is the beginning of the end, I need to crack down and get ready to throw myself out there, shove my resume in as many people’s faces as possible, and pretend that, though I don’t look a day over 16, I am actually 21 years old and an adult in every possible way that can land me in adult-people jail.

Just thinking about that has me wishing I could push rewind, that I could click on the backward chapter button and go to my first college party where Megan drank herself almost to death and we had to stay at my godsister’s, step back to senior year powderpuff football, athletic training room sword fights, Manhattan bagels before morning traffic. I wish I could go back to pee-wee soccer where scoring goals was the highlight of the week and those slices of oranges during half-time made my day. I want to turn around and wind up back when trick-or-treating was just for people my age and wanting candy every second of every day was not something strange.

I wish I could call out, ‘do-over!’ and have everything start over again.

But at the same time, I’m happy where I am right now at 21. Maybe instead of rewind, I can push pause.

It’s been quite a while this time! I kept meaning to writer earlier when I first moved in, but found that compared to when I was in England and on vacation this summer, I find that there’s not much to write about in comparison.

Maybe now I can still write rather often, but shorter posts or something. Just to warn you, however, they may be filled with rans. Check the category to know for sure. ;o)

Ok, I started this post this morning while I waited for someone to call back so I could interview them for an article, but now it’s 9:36pm, we just had shrimp caesar salad and baked potatoes and are watching America’s Next Top Model. In 14 minutes, Sons of Anarchy will be on! This is a great thing because one of my top five guys is in it! Charlie Hunnam :o) He was one of the main guys in one of my favorite movies ever: Green Street Hooligans.

Originally from England, he takes on an American accent for this tv show. In the movie and on another show he says things in an American accent in fun sometimes and it’s kind of hilarious. Like other people from England sometimes do when they’re putting on an American accent, he used a country accent.

It’s better now though, I can still tell a bit that he’s British, but it’s better!

Anyway, yesterday we went to Sinking Creek for my Freshwater Ecology Lab course, and the drive is about 25 minutes west of Blacksburg. It was an interesting drive out there–we took two vans as a class out there and passed a very old-fashioned grocery/gas station with scripted letters in red with two of the middle letters missing. Then we passed by a house with about seven old, old American muscle cars outside and they were all gorgeous. One of them was even an antique-looking police car!

Then we got to the creek, I put on my waist high wading boots, and we wandered into the stream. The guy who sits next to me looked at me, laughed and said, “Haha, aw, you’re like a puss in wading boots!”

We waded in and it was neat! It was fun standing in running water, though it was a bit slippery, and I was afraid of falling. We caught a crawfish! And scrubbed some algae off of rocks. Got water…some stuff I felt very funny doing. I know nothing about lakes, streams, dirt, water, and I don’t like bugs.

I was talking to Cece and Hannah about this after my first day in lab where we looked at tools used in the lab, and I had no idea what any of them were for or any clue what they might do. The other kids in the class were all from the south and I, as a girl from the suburbs, felt very out of place. I nodded and said, “Wow,” a lot as my lab mates dissected meaning from each tool on our table.

Started up with the Collegiate Times again, and they’re so nice! Very encouraging and ego-boosting people there. After being stressed all week until my deadlines have finally passed and the articles are complete and turned in, their words always make me feel better and make me feel very appreciated.

Tomorrow and Friday I volunteered to help set-up and work at Gobblerfest. Then there’s tons of homework to do, the usual, and our first game, the White Out game, against Furman is this Saturday. On Sunday I plan to go with a few people to The River :o)

Frankie said he’d come with some friends! His friend is also on the football team here at Tech so Frank got free tickets. He’s a freshman at Radford this year, and I think he likes it a lot. I’m really glad too! Hopefully he does well in school!

Anyway, I have some work to do so I’m out.

Bye!